23 April 2025

You always already lost

You always already lost
for Daniel S.

You always already lost 
Beloved. I don’t have words 
To make you speak
Anymore. Nor would I 

Know how to try to. 
You always already lost
Beloved, how could I try
To corral you into 

Another space where
I could control you? I
Cannot have that 
Power. You always

Already lost beloved,
I tested you on the facts. 
I made you tell me
You still loved me, despite 

The damage and the thrill. 
I thought you were the love 
Who lasted no longer than 
The length of smoking 

A cigarette, but now I 
See, when you are dead,
That your presence lasts
For the only lifetime

I have. Goodbye, my friend.